I've been thinking a lot and everytime i say this it's something bad, but now it's not- it's something i don't understand how i could forget.
I've been working out for 3 years, i've changed my body a lot and i've done a lot to get where i am. In the start it was easy, i lost a lot fast and i got so happy, so so happy! Then things in my life happened, i wasn't the most happiest person at this time and place. This made me workout more, also i started to sleep more. What i did here was sleeping,sleeping, sleeping, working out, sleeping. I didn't really eat as i should have been doing and i think we all can see where this was going. I remember how people in my family had to drag me out of the bed and watch me eat. I remember everyone having "the talk" about how you can get sick by doing this, i remember my mom being worried. It's not like i didn't want to eat and i did eat, i remember it like i was eating but my body told me something else. I started to become really dizzy, i was close to passing out so many times, i couldn't go on trips with my family because i would pass out. I also didn't have a restday at this point, i worked out too much. The dizzy thing was my body telling me to stop with everything i was doing. I'm not saying that i was sick, i'm saying that i did something stupid without even knowing. I don't remember how i got out of it, i think if i remember it somewhat right it was that i woke up early, i ate 3 times a day and i didn't workout for some time. I also started to talk about my problems and i know that sometimes it feels like nothing will help, nothing will make whatever you are going through wend, it will AND if you talk about it, it might go faster.
The thing i'm working on now is to understand that i don't look like i did 3 years ago, i'm getting better! I notice that i'm getting stronger! this makes me so happy :D
i'll write more soon, love you!
I've been working out for 3 years, i've changed my body a lot and i've done a lot to get where i am. In the start it was easy, i lost a lot fast and i got so happy, so so happy! Then things in my life happened, i wasn't the most happiest person at this time and place. This made me workout more, also i started to sleep more. What i did here was sleeping,sleeping, sleeping, working out, sleeping. I didn't really eat as i should have been doing and i think we all can see where this was going. I remember how people in my family had to drag me out of the bed and watch me eat. I remember everyone having "the talk" about how you can get sick by doing this, i remember my mom being worried. It's not like i didn't want to eat and i did eat, i remember it like i was eating but my body told me something else. I started to become really dizzy, i was close to passing out so many times, i couldn't go on trips with my family because i would pass out. I also didn't have a restday at this point, i worked out too much. The dizzy thing was my body telling me to stop with everything i was doing. I'm not saying that i was sick, i'm saying that i did something stupid without even knowing. I don't remember how i got out of it, i think if i remember it somewhat right it was that i woke up early, i ate 3 times a day and i didn't workout for some time. I also started to talk about my problems and i know that sometimes it feels like nothing will help, nothing will make whatever you are going through wend, it will AND if you talk about it, it might go faster.
The thing i'm working on now is to understand that i don't look like i did 3 years ago, i'm getting better! I notice that i'm getting stronger! this makes me so happy :D
i'll write more soon, love you!