So, i need to write about a lot of things so just come with me and explore my mind, that's always fun!
One thing i've notice; the whole "loving your body" is a fun thing to do. You care less about what people think of you because why care? i know it's easy to say but something else to do. I went out with my friends the other day and i wore a shirt that showed off my belly and my back and i wasn't scared that people would be like "ew". I felt good, i felt like it looked good on me. I'm also happier now and evey time time i think about how far i've come i get happier. I've worked out so good the last week and i love it! As i said before i worked out so others could like me or how i did it for me to like myself and not think about the spots and so on, why do i work out now? Well 1: if i don't do it i don't feel good. 2: i get so happy by doing it. 3:i want to inspire people. 4: i want to look sexy as fuck naked. 5: when you see how your body is changing and you hear how people tell you that it's a big change; it gets addicting, like i want to keep going.
'm going on the long ass walk tomorrow and i'm going to swim! Also i'm going to do pilates at night, really get in there and shred for the newyears dress i want to have on! i want the little belly fluff to go away! Best way to do that is cardio and ab things! i will show before and after pictures of it, i will post it even tho i fail because that's just a part of life!
now i want to talk about people, or to be clear; one person.
if people think they can treat you like whatever they want you to be, show them that you're far from the thing they want you to be. This is something i'm doing right now. I'm not going to sit around waiting for this person to hit me up and only wanting one thing- no. I'm not someone who will do whatever it takes to please you, i go after my own rules, do i want to go over there? if no; i say no. if yes; i go. It's that easy. I also think saying no is something that might be annoying for the other person, like this person thought that they had me around their little finger but to be honest, they don't. I'm very clear with that now. I'm not a side chick, i'm not someone you can call up when you're bored, i'm not. I'll show you who makes the rules and i'll show you that i'm nothing like you think. It bugs me to think that people see other people as someone or something they can hit up when they are feeling bored or something, we all are people and we're not a toy. We're not something you play with and the put down to go play with this other toy. This is super weird but as i've said before, my brain is a weird thing.
I feel more happy with myself now and i can not wait for what 2016 will bring me! I'll work even more on myself and we can go nowhere but up baby!
One thing i've notice; the whole "loving your body" is a fun thing to do. You care less about what people think of you because why care? i know it's easy to say but something else to do. I went out with my friends the other day and i wore a shirt that showed off my belly and my back and i wasn't scared that people would be like "ew". I felt good, i felt like it looked good on me. I'm also happier now and evey time time i think about how far i've come i get happier. I've worked out so good the last week and i love it! As i said before i worked out so others could like me or how i did it for me to like myself and not think about the spots and so on, why do i work out now? Well 1: if i don't do it i don't feel good. 2: i get so happy by doing it. 3:i want to inspire people. 4: i want to look sexy as fuck naked. 5: when you see how your body is changing and you hear how people tell you that it's a big change; it gets addicting, like i want to keep going.
'm going on the long ass walk tomorrow and i'm going to swim! Also i'm going to do pilates at night, really get in there and shred for the newyears dress i want to have on! i want the little belly fluff to go away! Best way to do that is cardio and ab things! i will show before and after pictures of it, i will post it even tho i fail because that's just a part of life!
now i want to talk about people, or to be clear; one person.
if people think they can treat you like whatever they want you to be, show them that you're far from the thing they want you to be. This is something i'm doing right now. I'm not going to sit around waiting for this person to hit me up and only wanting one thing- no. I'm not someone who will do whatever it takes to please you, i go after my own rules, do i want to go over there? if no; i say no. if yes; i go. It's that easy. I also think saying no is something that might be annoying for the other person, like this person thought that they had me around their little finger but to be honest, they don't. I'm very clear with that now. I'm not a side chick, i'm not someone you can call up when you're bored, i'm not. I'll show you who makes the rules and i'll show you that i'm nothing like you think. It bugs me to think that people see other people as someone or something they can hit up when they are feeling bored or something, we all are people and we're not a toy. We're not something you play with and the put down to go play with this other toy. This is super weird but as i've said before, my brain is a weird thing.
I feel more happy with myself now and i can not wait for what 2016 will bring me! I'll work even more on myself and we can go nowhere but up baby!
the before pics of me in the dress!